Here is this place... Love is all what I meet here. Here is this place... from where I can see everything that human's mind made up and are only parts of love.

This place embrace the whole world of illusions. It's all around. It's so simple to come here. It takes only to reverse my thoughts, and watch back 'reality', seeing how unfunctional are the concepts I was taught, all of them. I used to think my life was normal. I used to think everything that was put in my heart in order to access this love place was crazy, nonsense. I used to build so much reasons to keep my Reason the master. I used to live such crazyness and seriously thought it was serious and reasonnable. I was so good at distorting the evidence in a terrorizing foolish adventure and distorting the dying of my soul as a secure life. I could feel I was dying... I was just so good in being blind, mute and deaf at that. My favorite tool of illusion was time. I created time. Each time, the door of the place was just in front of me, I could use time to reassure me that I will go through the door later. I will go through the door later... I will go through the door later, for sure... I will... That kept me a...sleep ! I thought it kept me alive !

One day, I just stopped thinking it was serious and secure to play this all emotional black-mails. I just stopped grabbing parts of 'reality' as if it was my own. I just stopped thinking stability was security... and put this body on the river of my intuitions...

Here is this place... the river drived me here. It's so huge here. So exactly what anyone cries or cries out to experience. So exactly what anyone think they need. And it was so close. It's all around. There is no path that doesn't lead here... just that it needs to walk the path...

Here is this huge place... and I'm meeting no one here. Is it just a transit area ? I'm so scared !

I'm building bridges to this place. I use my all heart to shout that the place exist. I smile like a child and get so enthusiastic. I'm so sure anyone wants to come here. Everybody waves at me, smile... then stay over there, having what they call "fun" or what is on the other side : depression, searching for good, positive, right, fair, true... barely conscious that on the other side there is always bad, negative, wrong, unfair and false. And of course, we create all this !

Here is this place... no good, no bad, no right, no wrong, no true, no false. No path to follow. Only Love !

Here is this place... it becomes what I do with it.

Here is this place... they keep let it as a cold desert...

I cannot get back there... "there" doesn't exist. Here is this place... I'm so scared !

There is not one fear anymore that could prevents me from doing as I wish ! But, god, who can I choose to be when getting so scared of what other people won't do ? What if they'll let here a cold desert and have what they call "fun" instead of making love ?

Before, I could at least hate them or judge them... this belong to the world of illusions... I know it doesn't exist. I can only hate or judge myself through them... God, who can I choose to be, now that I'm free to be, if no one plays with me ?

I'm so scared of this cold desert... I cannot get back there... I love them, when I meet them... they only use it to survive... I'm so scared that they are scared to be loved... they only want attachments...

Here is this place... What if they'll let here a cold desert and have what they call "fun" instead of making love with me... instead of making this place heaven ?

Am I trapped ? Please, 'someone' help me...